Category Archives: MindSpace

The Single Grain of Sand – what will he move?

Growing up…was rather uneventful.

I do not go into fights, I do not join competitions, and I was just average in my studies.

I never stood out. No one knows me (outside my class)  and no one remembers. And so, I grew up thinking, who am I – trying to influence the world? I am nothing but a grain of sand.

A life that passes by, through an individual who thinks that the world will never be influenced by his actions. A grain of sand in the expanse of the Earth.

However, as the philosophy of Fichte goes –

“You could not remove a single grain of sand from its place without thereby changing something throughout all parts of the immeasurable whole.”

So, what will this grain of sand be capable of moving? I am excited to find out!

“What to do Tomorrow…”

Graduating from University, instantly thrusts you into the huge, wide world. And now, I am at the age where most people would feel unsure of what to do or where I am going. At least, that is what I am feeling now.

Grind through frustrations for wealth?

Learn to enjoy what you have to do?

Seek what you enjoy and be satisfied?

I really have no idea what I want and yet, unsatisfied with what I need to do.

So, I decided to take a gap year after a 3 year job where I feel that I am working and yet, not. Everyday just passed as another day. Like a factory machine, an endless cycle of action filled with feeling of mundanity – to the point that you have loss sense of dates and time.

“Wait, what day is it? I can’t tell…I have been doing this everyday. Lets just call everyday ‘Monday’.”

The reason for that gap year was that I wanted to take time, and discover -what, how, where and when-.

“What” is my aspirations

“How” to dispose of my childish dispositions

“Where” do I really want to be

“When” to -grow up- and accept realities

It is already the 6th month of my gap year. And I still have no idea.

But, I will still look forward, to the day where I will know the answers and, the excitement Teddy (Robin Williams’ Theodore Roosevelt) has for tomorrow.

Larry: I have no idea what to do tomorrow…

Teddy: How exciting!

– Conversation between Larry & Teddy, Night at the Museum: Secret of the Tomb

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